be♥-ed !

this blog is so dead.. it's no more like before i changed my template..

so dead huhhhhhhhhhhh!! should i dig a graveyard for my blog????

the c-box is too "exposed" i think or maybe it's a fact---no one's viewing my blog anymore!!!

HELLLOOOOOO??!!! i'm hearing echoes *hellohellohelloooo*

abandoned ;'(

i was emotional these few weeks, depressed, till i didnt realize it's November,

it's the 16th today *sigh* IT'S NOVEMBER!!!!

it was already a month since my bday party! can u believe that???

i'm unhappy ;( i'm NOT happy

i always have too much to think, major unnecessary stuff..

how unnecessary? thinking which tv drama to watch, which movie to go, what to post on blog, which song i've not dl-ed yet,i've not bought PUCCA yet, why he/she didn't call me, oh i've forgotten to tell her bout that! , when to do facial, missing someone,haven't marked my worksheets,when to repair my phone camera,what to wear for the next outing, how much i'll earn this month, are ghosts exist?, what's wrong with our relationship, how to tell mom that i wanted to buy an iPod using her credit card, when we're goin to meet, how

to get rid of that kinda behaviour, why i'm sad now, how long i didnt contact with frens, y i

didnt appreciate, i'm goin to work harder, i wanna buy this/that, y i'm living a life like

this................ ......... .....

rather absurd, isn't it? not kidding .

i'm silly & stupid.. i rmb when i was form2, the best year i ever had, qingyan really likes to take photos using her camera.. i was like "y she likes to capture everything??"

now i realized, how important a camera is.. ;)

this year, sweet sixteen?

ironically i was living in the past, i'm living in those wonderful memories i had,

i don't wanna wake up, i persuaded myself, this is the best way to escape from my real life,

i don't like what i'm living now, i don't like writing blogs about state of mind, i really dislike reading ppl's emotional blogs yet now i'm typing, i'm sick..

samantha u're sick

i regret that i didn't capture every moment i had when i was in CH, especially form 2.

TOO GREAT, greatest memories i had despite few of my frens were leaving school,

i had the greatest class, greatest frens(ever), greatest sports day, greatest society, greatest

bday celebration,surprises, gifts & cards, greatest guy, greatest events....

all the Greatest, imprinted forever on my memory **BIG BIG SMILE**

but why, why didn't i capture them??

i wasn't used to take photos using my own camera, i own a camera phone & a camera but i seldom get use of it.. even though cameras r with me when i'm having a great time, yet i still always forget to take photos-.- how stupid ! BIMBO!!! that's why i hv not much photos of

2007.. *2007 photos credit to LOW QING YAN* =) u've done a great job!

awwww.. peace. no war! haha

i also had a great time in the hostel with 413, tpy, nicky & wanqing :)

i love those days with them so so much, how much i wished to go back...

playing with my form1 roommates, having meals with nicky & all of them, playing volleyball, sharing secrets with the girls, crazy about ohmyGod-.-,hair cut by discipline teachers,

arguments with parents, crying in front of besties,writing letters with them, acting like a narcissist, bringing on the atmosphere in class, havin' fun in two societies,birthday wishes from many many frens... laughters everyday.. thanks so much frens ;D STOP! pls stop! STOP

RECALLING!!

i'm so touched n happy , but i hate that i wasn't grateful, i seemed to take things for granted.

i felt sorry.. i apologize to whom i didn't appreciate : SORRY!! (forgive me?)

2007 was a year that my frens n i syok sendiri, was totally fun.. SYOK SENDIRI = FUN !!

i thought i'm naive,so i made a change, it was what u can see in 2008, a transform or grown-up?

no more declaring myself as Miss World(which i thought it was no more narcissistic than

naive), started buying handbags(goodbye schoolbags!), fell in love with shopping, no more yelling or speaking loudly in class, no more interacting with most of 2007 classmates, no more sms with boys that i'm not interested with, over-confident(a vry bad personality i always wanted to change) & still , disorientated...

ahhhhh, samantha chan, what for??!! *frustrated expression*

in 2008, i started to take photos, more photos.. haha but not much lah ;(

the first day of self-revision 2009

my 15th bday with wanqing,nicky,wanfen& siewling

15th bday : peace sign by anjie,mingshien,wenfang,caiwen,zhilin(camera girl)

n 2008 photos credit to CHIA YIJIE, she has been taking lots n lots of photos since i've known her *heees*

oh ya! i was in love since 1st april 08 *heartthrob* :D:D:D:D:D precious moments! *hearts*

n also 3HE, we had the best moments : 3 days we spent together--graduation trip@EAGLE RANCH, P.D. , and, the very last day of the trip- the day i knew i have to leave CH :'(

the noisiest in class

last day of the trip ;(

ok! it's 2009! no, it's the end of 2009 :(

ain't vry happy. the happiest time is chitchatting thru the phone with besties n jer ;D

not much photos with me.... ahhh!!!

i need those photossssss!!!!

stupid me, silly me!!! y not everytime??

this year i wanted to capture every moment, it didn't make it when i was too happy or sad with frens, or worse, few frens here dislike taking photos but only like taking narcissistic photos-.- hor?? i-xin ng & lisin!!!!! hmph!!

some photos here :