random III

hello there, the angel of my nightmare.

no updates recently. gonna update today in chinese :)

这几个礼拜 都好忙 忙功课 忙生活营 几乎快喘不过气来

这几个礼拜 好不开心 很伤心 很不快乐

从phuket回来 就新年了 总的来说 就是一直在玩

开学了 赶功课的时候了 觉得自己赶不上 很不开心

节目组的东西 又怕赶不上 真的真的很down

终于 camp都举办得非常成功 很开心 因为每个人都付出了很多

越是累 收获越是多 哈哈

收获最大的是 和不熟的人 都熟起来了!

当然 也是感受到很久没感受到的---团结

离开中华第二年了 很久都没感受到团结的感觉了 真的很开心

最大的问题不是功课或其他

是我终于都感受到孤单了 从未感受的孤单

明明很害怕这种感觉 却装酷 最讨厌我自己这样

明明很不快乐 还要装饰

很空虚 很低沉

好像没有ngam key的朋友 怎么办 我该怎样

很辛苦 憋在心里真的很辛苦

有时候想 可能是自己的问题吧

这段日子 好累 没时间打给佩韵青艳可嘉

终于昨天都打给她们了

他们已经可说是我精神支柱 哈

可嘉啊可嘉 我爱你

希望你不会后悔自己作出的选择

我们都会很很很支持你的

还有 谢谢你昨天听了我很多心事

但是 今天 我还是一样的 觉得真的很孤单

很现实的 真的很现实

为什么 为什么 感觉上 自己患上 agoraphobia

目前 学业是我人生当中最最最大的目标

什么都不管了

好不好

不要理了

挨过这年就可以了

不开心的时候总会过去

伤心的时候就哭啦

没什么的

谁不曾有这种感觉

但是我想说

我真的 快崩溃了

谁来关心 ?

无关紧要了.

我还是很很很很

不快乐

我要终结孤单!

well, this is so about my feelings recently. i nvr post a post like this before.

just ignore me. just ignore what i'm scribbling down.

i'm so emo recently.

someone love me & care for me pls.

bite me & pinch me

HAPPY CNY!

yo i'm not asleep yet.. at my dad's gf's shop now..
she's selling flowers tmrw for valentine's day ! haah! gonna help her out tmrw!
feel extremely sleepyyyyyyyy now :(:(:(
HAPPY TIGER YEAR!!
GONG HEE FATT CHAI!!!
HUAT AHHHH!
started playing card games with bro & Mae.. hahaha
u know the game called "in between" ? slightly better than blackjack :P
and yeah,
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
to all lovers : may u & ur partner last long forever!
to all singles : celebrate this special day with ur same sex frens or hangout with frens who are still single! be proud to be single yo!



enjoy ur CNY yo!!! muahhhhhss!!! loves!

wholaa!

phuket yo!

you see you see! my blog is still alive! not dead yet!

lazy to update XD so i personalized my blog HAHA

now i'll blog every alternate days as possible(?) i'm not sure whether i hv those time tho.

anyway, this vry private(for myself) blog is CONFIDENTIAL!

only for some peeps..

yeah it's just for some pies i've invited..

oh yeah oh yeah excited with this twitter-style blogger! *wide smile*

y i call it twitter-style? (i called it!)

cos i update everything in ma mind. my feelings my thoughts whatsoever stuff!

don't make it public please :( i mean not to show ur frens that i don't know or i didn't invite to this bloggie wuggie..

and so, u can share anything here with me. HA HA HA

HAPPY CNY in advance!

tata(L)

OWL CITY!!

let me introduce you this song!

a really really nice song!!!!

OWL CITY'S "FIREFLIES"!

you'll love it ;D

i couldn't get the official music video from Youtube cos the embed code was disabled.

must listen!!

once again,
JAY-Z ft. ALICIA KEYS' "EMPIRE STATE OF MIND" rockssssssss!!!



the end ;D

random II

i was lazy to update my blog recently, all of a sudden, i wanna update.

i was inspired after reading someone's blog, a 16-year-old boy's blog post which i will constantly view, and it really motivated me to publish this post.

an hour ago qingyan called n we chatted something, gossips, as usual.

she told me that a blog of a friend of us, is vry COMMERCIALIZE.

no doubt, she told me in that word "COMMERCIALIZE".

let me guess, commercialize, commercial.. blablabla

n randomly i read the post i've mentioned above..

n these both made sense to me--- just type down what u wanna express!

really cool lah that boy's blog's post, really really awesome!

what he said was really really A FACT.

ok i don't know whether he knows that i'm mentioning him or not >)

great job, good job, xxxxx!

let me see whr i've been in this holiday..

Penang, Taiwan, Cousin's hse, Dad's place, Kumon, Sunway, One Utame, Mid Valley, KTM..................... home -.-

i didn't really enjoy Taiwan bcos' it's not a place that i wanted to go//hv a look/stay/travel,

i enjoyed days with cousins ;D

we're all grown ups, we had fun, strong bonds between us ;)

although we're like..err..different backgrounds.. Sri KDU, ChongHwa, SMK,Ti-Ratana..

but it's fun lah, really fun ;D

we spent occasions together, the most recent one is X'mas@1U ;D

guess what? 6 of us queued for movie tickets for more than 30 minutes and boo ya, we didn't purchase any-.-ll

the whole holiday i didn't spend a day with frens till last Tuesday went out with Peyyan.

more than 3 years we hadn't seen each other yet we're still the same old pals =)

went the TaiMah's(Big Mother)house the day before Christmas Eve, i love her house n also her person. She's a kind woman who really loves her friends n children.

there's no where i wanna go during X'mas but her house.

every year since i was a kid till now.. her house's decos are perfect,beautiful.. it makes u feel like oh-this-is-so-Christmas OR oh-this-is-so-chinese-new-year! laughter, delicious foods, warm... yeah, WARM is the word ;)

hardly spent few days with dad since he was busy n also bro and i.

we watched 2012 a month after it released-.-

ohhh I love you daddy! I really love u so much!!

and the rest of the holi-dayssss i was at home doing ntg =/ & of course Thursdays n Saturdays@KUMON working.

facebook facebook wedding dinners wedding dinners SWT

there are so many wedding dinners to attend!!!! ahhhhh

photos down here! More to come babe!

Tropicana Club House after swimming

Penang

christmas eve@Dessert's Bar

this is what i wore on Christmas Day..

Taipei the five musketeers!

ladies

penang mamak stalls!

penang hotel sea view

penang cousins

penang hotel

Big Mother's house

1st outing with frens this holiday -.-

PEYYAN I LOVE YOU!

mieko n peyyan <3

Mieko the tall girl!

Sam here...

WISHING YOU A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

01-01-2010!!!!

A BRAND NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

SPM HERE I COME!!!!!

dreams come true, humans!!!

playlist : Plasticines-I am down(TQ Jimmy!! a great song!) , Jay-Z ft. Alicia Keys-Empire State of mind, Taylor Swift-Fifteen, Alicia Keys-Doesn't Mean Anything & Boys Like Girls ft. Taylor Swift-Two Is Better Than One.

NIGHTS ;P

I LOVE YOU!

I LOVE YOU !!!!!!

updates

i've taken quite many photos in Kumon but unfortunately all gone due to the problem of my memory card & the phone's software ;(;(;( luckily i hv Annie =)

she's my colleague, Sarmini, she's 8 years older than me =D

let me introduce u---- the TWINS!

this is LAU ZI FU! ahhhhhhhhhhh chubby chubby!!

well this is also Zi Fu!

here comes his eldest brother!

LAU ZI HAO!! omgsh omgsh!!

they are TOOOOO CUTE!!!!

especially the right handside brother ZI FU!! u see??!!
everyone in the center couldn't resist to pinch them 99!!

fatty chubby funny but not naughty! haha!

the way they speak is super duper cute!!

both standard one!

can u differentiate them??

the left side is the eldest brother ZI HAO n so the right side is ZI FU.

u look at their face... the slimmer one is ZI HAO n obviously the fatter one is ZI FU!

hahahahhahhaahaha it makes sense lah!!

in fact i've already recorded 2 videos of ZI FU........... ;(

blame my phone lahh ;(

really cute u know.. !!!

thanks to Annie & her phone :)

let me tell u this video down there!!! haha!! it's about the "Monologue Song(La La La)" sang by Taylor Swift when she opened the show, Saturday Night Live/SNL, as a host. It's really hilarious!!!! the lyrics were hilarious when she sang about Joe Jonas(her ex-bf),Taylor Lautner(her current one) & Kanye West who ruined her VMA. really funny tho.. i don't know whether it's funny to you.. but YOU GOTTA WATCH N LISTEN THIS! the lyrics right below the video :D :D

“I like writing songs about douchebags who cheat on me but I’m not gonna say that in my monologue.”
– “You might think I’d bring up Joe [Jonas], that guy who broke up with me on the phone, but I’m not gonna mention him in my monologue. Hey Joe! I’m doing real well. Tonight, I’m hosting SNL but I’m not gonna brag about that in my monologue. La la la. Ha ha ha. La la la.”
– “And if you’re wondering if I might be dating the werewolf from Twilight. "Hey Taylor [Lautner]! (blows kiss, winks)" But I’m not gonna comment on that in my monologue.”lalalalalalala this is my musical monologue.
– “You might be expecting me to say something bad about Kanye [West] and how he ran up on stage and ruined my VMA monologue. But there’s nothing more to say cuz everything’s okay. I’ve got security lining the stage. It’s my SNL monologue.lalalalalalala this is my SNL monologue lalalalalalala that was my SNL monologue”
“We have a great show. Kanye West is NOT here, so stick around. We’ll be right back.”

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oh ya! Hitz.fm called me last wednesday!! hahaha!! nothing to brag about actually><

few days ago, i was mopping the floor in that morning n was listening to FLY FM. WHOALA! mom received a call,was vry unusual that i didn't use her hp to call anyone but someone calling me?! then i answered the call, obviously calling from KL 'cos the numbers were 0390xxxxxx.. n the voice was so unfamiliar BUT familiar!! he said "hi r u samantha?", i answered "ya?" ,"this is calling from Hitz FM and i'm xxxx!" i don't know whether he was Ean or JJ.. i think it's Ean lah(morning crew)

then i was like OMGOMGOMGOMG!!! i could feel my temperature rising instantly!!

then he required my IC NO & address n told me bout the prizes & stuff lah.. i was too nervous n wasn't listening to what he was talking about.

n he started to ask me questions n i hv to answer in 21 seconds!! tooo panic ah!

.............. i answered two correctly only ......... :( ....... shud be 4 and more!!!!!!!!!

he ended by telling if i'm the winner to see GreenDay@AUS i'll receive a call on Friday.. but, but, but... no phone calls on Friday.. wuwahhhh T.T

nvm la, my love towards GREENDAY won't change =D

i love u billie! i love u trecool! i love u mike!

muahs (L)